Ups and downs

You know what. Emotions are such a complicated stuff. Sensitive too.

What I don't understand is, how can one be so happy at one time, then sad an hour later.

Maybe I was just being too sensitive.

Maybe I was being too outspoken.

Maybe they didn't mean something by it.

I always say that I am happy and everything, but I still am an outsider.

It is like I am in the group but not really included kinda.

I hate that feeling. It doesn't matter what I say when I give opinions, but it matters when I say something that they find unappropriated? Where is the just in that?

I am suddenly so tired. Tired of keeping up. Tired of pretending that everything is alright. Tired of being told. Tired of playing the naive and innocent one.

I am just so tired.

This is the fourth time this type of issue has brought tears to my eyes even when I don't want them to come.

What should I do? I am just so tired.